causes and effects

okay, well, the GM thing didn't work out
but...it was fun and exciting to get a phone call nonetheless

i keep waiting

i keep writing

i keep wondering what the fuck

i love that word

if i sit and do nothing than nothing is what i get

if i cause the universe to look at what i'm sending out
then effects is the feedback, the results

so i take a look at what results i am receiving
hmmm...i need to change my causes a tad bitty bit

all in all, today is a good day
the dark cloud is not hovering quite so low

i've decided to quit smoking
this brings joy and fear
but i'll not do it alone
our neighboring country in Windsor will help

i believe that smoking is part of my depression
so...i shall take action...

next week :)

in the meantime, i'll ride the wave of joy i have going for me today

happy happy joy joy

A Glimpse

i spoke out loud a thank you
i had a few brief moments of momentum toward
getting back into the swing of things

a phone call

yes, a phone call

lake orion

GM

engineering

I sent my resume

they called with a tip so i updated it

i signed a preliminary agreement (via email)

now i wait

a brief moment of excitement. yes!

sustaining?

now i wait

jump start

thank you, God

Jump Start

i'm trying my best to stay focused on the good, be grateful, things could be so much worse

there are days when i am really up and there are days when i am really down

i don't know what triggers either direction

life goes on around me and i choose to sometimes participate and sometimes not

most of the time i just want to hide and wait; see if i get that call; see if i'm wanted by someone

i hate this

i was on such a roll

if i make my own destiny then i must have really fucked up some where

get back on track

live in the day, not the future

somethings got to give

i need a jump start

some how, some day, please universe, look my way