i'm trying my best to stay focused on the good, be grateful, things could be so much worse
there are days when i am really up and there are days when i am really down
i don't know what triggers either direction
life goes on around me and i choose to sometimes participate and sometimes not
most of the time i just want to hide and wait; see if i get that call; see if i'm wanted by someone
i hate this
i was on such a roll
if i make my own destiny then i must have really fucked up some where
get back on track
live in the day, not the future
somethings got to give
i need a jump start
some how, some day, please universe, look my way