i spoke out loud a thank you
i had a few brief moments of momentum toward
getting back into the swing of things
a phone call
yes, a phone call
lake orion
GM
engineering
I sent my resume
they called with a tip so i updated it
i signed a preliminary agreement (via email)
now i wait
a brief moment of excitement. yes!
sustaining?
now i wait
jump start
thank you, God
About me
- A lil info:
- I am many things to many different people. I have few titles and fewer awards but I am complete in all that I have accomplished. My most precious of all gifts does not belong to me yet I love as if. You may know me, but you'll never really know me because I cannot be anything more than what you want to see even though I am everything I need to be.
Aug 17, 2009
Jump Start
i'm trying my best to stay focused on the good, be grateful, things could be so much worse
there are days when i am really up and there are days when i am really down
i don't know what triggers either direction
life goes on around me and i choose to sometimes participate and sometimes not
most of the time i just want to hide and wait; see if i get that call; see if i'm wanted by someone
i hate this
i was on such a roll
if i make my own destiny then i must have really fucked up some where
get back on track
live in the day, not the future
somethings got to give
i need a jump start
some how, some day, please universe, look my way
there are days when i am really up and there are days when i am really down
i don't know what triggers either direction
life goes on around me and i choose to sometimes participate and sometimes not
most of the time i just want to hide and wait; see if i get that call; see if i'm wanted by someone
i hate this
i was on such a roll
if i make my own destiny then i must have really fucked up some where
get back on track
live in the day, not the future
somethings got to give
i need a jump start
some how, some day, please universe, look my way
Jul 24, 2009
mastering a masters degree...a family affair
as i think about how i'm gonna manage my life from this point on, given the circumstances i'm in (no job, no job prospects, money running out soon, home foreclosure process), my thoughts keep returning to my latest endeavor, school. back in college. back to student loans (spending money i don't have. thx unc sam). back to work on that bachelors degree i started more than 25 years ago. and as i think about it, i remember that i've got a party to go to tomorrow night. a party to celebrate the accomplishments of one of my younger brothers. brother number 4. number 4 of 5 brothers. 5 good brothers. good men
no. 4 recently received his master's degree in something about building bridges and roads. you know, the stuff little boys practice building, okay, and even little girls, using lincoln logs, tinker toys and erector sets. my thoughts continue as i briefly track his life in a whimsical sort of way
no. 4 went from the military, to marriage, to MSU, where he received a bachelors degree, to children (no. 4 had 4) and then back to college at lawrence tech. a 26 year snap shot in time. when no. 4 put his mind to something, there was no turning back. old man time could wave his long and short hands all he wanted
tick...tock...
tick...tock
no. 4 didn't care. he wants to be able to build bridges
but getting a masters degree is no easy feat. hell, getting a bachelors isn't either. but how did he accomplish a masters with a wife, 4 miniature no. 4's, a huge house, payments, cats and dogs and, oh yeah, a job!?
how'd he do it? its got to be a family affair in order to make that happen. it just has to. cuz, after this great achievement, no. 4 still has his wife, the 4 miniatures, the house, the payments, cats and dogs and, oh yeah, a job! they all stuck it out with him
its got to be a family affair. to have him gone so many hours of the day at work, so many hours of the night at school, and so many hours spent doing homework somewhere in between
its got to be a family affair. to hear of everything that occurred during the day at the end of the day. the wife report. probably readers digest style. i mean, how could he have time to hear the events, in which they actual unfolded, in novel format? and novels do happen every day when there are miniatures around!
its got to be a family affair. when daddy is gone so much, mommy plays two roles and the miniatures wait for just a glimpse of daddy, sometimes forgetting to look because they're busy growing up
its got to be a family affair. giving inspiration, support, "go get 'em" attitudes. to forgive. to get through the missing, the wanting, the hurts, the sadness, and the loneliness
yep. that's my answer, my conclusion. this diploma belongs to the entire family. that's how he did it. that's how "they" did it
so, BIG hats off to the wife for standing by your man. for giving he and your family so much dedication, love and graciousness (and who gives a shit if the laundry gets done or not)
and hats off to the miniatures for loving their daddy regardless of his absence. who will, hopefully, be inspired by his accomplishment. and for loving their mommy and will, hopefully, inspire to be just like her when they become a parent
and hats off to the cats and dogs, both present and past, for giving the family affair their undivided attention when called upon (and even when not called upon). for allowing their soft furry selves and cold wet noses to be a point of comfort. for distracting the family affair when the long hours seemed too much to bare by demanding some food, water, play or a clean shitter box
and finally, hats off to no. 4, the grad. the master grad. for giving up so much to achieve his goal, his dream, his purpose. build that bridge, baby, and keep the one you already built with your family strong and unwavering forever
you inspire me, truly
no. 4 recently received his master's degree in something about building bridges and roads. you know, the stuff little boys practice building, okay, and even little girls, using lincoln logs, tinker toys and erector sets. my thoughts continue as i briefly track his life in a whimsical sort of way
no. 4 went from the military, to marriage, to MSU, where he received a bachelors degree, to children (no. 4 had 4) and then back to college at lawrence tech. a 26 year snap shot in time. when no. 4 put his mind to something, there was no turning back. old man time could wave his long and short hands all he wanted
tick...tock...
tick...tock
no. 4 didn't care. he wants to be able to build bridges
but getting a masters degree is no easy feat. hell, getting a bachelors isn't either. but how did he accomplish a masters with a wife, 4 miniature no. 4's, a huge house, payments, cats and dogs and, oh yeah, a job!?
how'd he do it? its got to be a family affair in order to make that happen. it just has to. cuz, after this great achievement, no. 4 still has his wife, the 4 miniatures, the house, the payments, cats and dogs and, oh yeah, a job! they all stuck it out with him
its got to be a family affair. to have him gone so many hours of the day at work, so many hours of the night at school, and so many hours spent doing homework somewhere in between
its got to be a family affair. to hear of everything that occurred during the day at the end of the day. the wife report. probably readers digest style. i mean, how could he have time to hear the events, in which they actual unfolded, in novel format? and novels do happen every day when there are miniatures around!
its got to be a family affair. when daddy is gone so much, mommy plays two roles and the miniatures wait for just a glimpse of daddy, sometimes forgetting to look because they're busy growing up
its got to be a family affair. giving inspiration, support, "go get 'em" attitudes. to forgive. to get through the missing, the wanting, the hurts, the sadness, and the loneliness
yep. that's my answer, my conclusion. this diploma belongs to the entire family. that's how he did it. that's how "they" did it
so, BIG hats off to the wife for standing by your man. for giving he and your family so much dedication, love and graciousness (and who gives a shit if the laundry gets done or not)
and hats off to the miniatures for loving their daddy regardless of his absence. who will, hopefully, be inspired by his accomplishment. and for loving their mommy and will, hopefully, inspire to be just like her when they become a parent
and hats off to the cats and dogs, both present and past, for giving the family affair their undivided attention when called upon (and even when not called upon). for allowing their soft furry selves and cold wet noses to be a point of comfort. for distracting the family affair when the long hours seemed too much to bare by demanding some food, water, play or a clean shitter box
and finally, hats off to no. 4, the grad. the master grad. for giving up so much to achieve his goal, his dream, his purpose. build that bridge, baby, and keep the one you already built with your family strong and unwavering forever
you inspire me, truly
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