Thought Deflection

I just need to take a moment to reflect

to write
therapy
thought deflection

I can't seem to get the worry out of my body,
perpetuated by my obsessive thinking of what my daughter is
going through right now.

I remember when she was in the hospital, so, so
long ago.  She was just sixteen years old.
A terrible car accident put her there.
Put her in a coma,
broken, fragile, unconscious, lifeless

Her mother and I spending every possible
moment with her
wondering
worried
crying
foggy
should we plan for the worst?

no, that was unfathomable
no, that is not part of the plan

it was the most scared i've ever been
we will never forget
but we do heal, did heal
she healed


Although she is not going through quite
the same event with her own daughter now
her precious, beautiful five year old
who needs open heart surgery
she goes through the same emotions
the same worries
the fear of the unknown

her baby is sick
that's all she knows
her baby will be hurting
that's all she fears

we knew she was in good hands some
fourteen years ago
and her little girl will be in good hands as
well this week
that doesn't always comfort us enough though
this i know
if she could just feel the trust we most certainly CAN trust
that just like her, her baby will be absolutely fine

know it
believe it
draw on all the powerful, positive
energy that our God gives us through
the bonds we have in family and friends

if she could just feel that
feel it from me
her Mother
her siblings
God works through us, honey

if she could

but i know that's hard
i've been there
so, i'll be that for her
we'll be that for her
all of us
all that care
care enough to say a prayer

care

caring

caring enough

caring is enough

all that matters is our collective thoughts
sending nothing but caring
her way, and her baby's way

and so it is