Ponderance

I've written of fears of leaving my family, leaving my surroundings, leaving the smell of an early spring morning in these moldy and moss covered grounds. But one thing I realized today is that I will also be leaving my friends...my lesbian friends. It took years to find good friends that you could trust. Those that didn't play games. Those that weren't looking for anything but my friendship. Years.

Sitting with my girlfriend (not my lover) this evening. Each of us perched on the couch, wrapped in our cozy throws, sharing the same foot stool, watching the Piston game. Sometimes we'd talk. Sometimes we'd just sit and stare at the silly game on the TV; silence. And we were perfectly content.

Silence

Game over

Make a CD of Slumdog Millionaire

Watch Jay and Silent Bob...laugh, laugh, laugh

Say good night

Hug

Drive home

I wonder if I will be able to find this in Texas?

details, details, details

The law of attraction states, and I paraphrase, that which you focus your attention upon the most is that which you receive or attract. I know the universe, one source energy, that which we call God, is responding to my intentions. I just wasn't focusing on the details. I asked for a job, I asked for warm weather, I asked for a peaceful change in my life. So, now, eight months after losing my job ,I'm moving to Texas. Hmmm. Okay, well I don't have a job to go to...yet...but, the weather IS warm, to say the least, and I DO feel peaceful knowing that there are better opportunities for me there than here in the mitten state. I am blessed with a loving group of siblings, one of whom, along with his super darling wife, is making this move a possibility. They are so generous and excited about me coming. Me too. Me not. Want to go, must go, happy to finally get back on my feet. Sad to go, must go, will miss those in the mitten state.